A year later..

A year ago today, I received a call from the Gibson County Coroner telling me that Bill had killed himself. As I talked with Jacob about it yesterday, he said, "Mom, we were like 2 peas........in different pods on different continents." As he spoke, he moved his hands and extended his arms until they were as far apart as they could go. It was sad -- but true.

Bill always thought that someday his kids would just magically want to hang out with him, even though he had practically nothing to do with them their entire lives. I tried for years to tell him that wasn't going to happen. He needed to be working on that relationship from day one. He never believed me, but I think toward the end of his life, he was starting to see that it was true.